Joseph William DeMatthews

 My Dear Joe, here are the wings for all of the beautiful angels with you.

 

All my love,

 

Mom

 

Debbie

I'm sorry to hear about your fall.  Hope you feel better soon. All your friends are here if you need them.  Take Care & feel better.

 

Diane

TO ALL MY NEW FOUND FRIENDS & FAMILY,

 

I AM SO SORRY I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO WRIGHT TO ANY ONE EVEN MY JOEY, LAST WEEK I FELL AND WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. I HAD TO GET STITCHES ON THE BRIGDE OF MY NOSE. THEY GAUZE ACROSS MY NOSE ALMOST IN MY EYES, SO I REALLY CAN'T SEE. I SEE EVERYTHING BLURRED.

I CUT THE PIECES CLOSE TO MY EYES AND I AM ABLE TO SEE SOMEWHAT.

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CONTINUE TO WRITE TO JOEY & MYSELF I WILL WRITE YOU ALL VERY SOON.

LOVE TO ALL,

MY NEW FAMILY & FRIENDS

DEBBIE

Message by Gina and Alex......

To your Mom and Dad and
Everyone dear to you on this
Thanksgiving.... God Bless
your Family. Joe -
I just wish your Mom would talk
to my Mom... She is going through the
same thing...year after year....
It's always the same.
Nothing changes.
I know your with her and your Family!
Joe,
-----Happy Thanksgiving
---------Happy Holidays...
Truly Missed ....
----Luv GINA........

Message by your one n only..danielle

hey babe. well im sitting here..its late..im alone n my birthday is monday. this sucks. i would be om the phone with u right now or we would be in orlando for the weekend like we always did for our birthdays. i would be expecting to here happy birhtday at exactly midnight. and u would wait until the day of my birthday to get my gift n card like u always did or i would have gotten it like 3 weeks ago b/c u couldnt wait. we were both so bad when it came to that. i miss that. the stupid little things. im getting ready to move again i found all our stuff from the apartment. we had so much stuff for such a small place. i miss u so much n love u with all my heart.

 love danielle

Message by Gina & Alex

Joeeeeeee....
hahahaha.
Remember Alex called you Joeeeeee.
I miss you Joe. You were such a Great
Guy. We had so many fun times.
I have been thinking about you alot
lately. Finally after a year I went to
see your Mom and Soup. It felt good.
It lifted a weight off my shoulders!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
Last year, you and I won First place at all the Halloween Costume contests - remember that!
GOOD TIMES!
Thinking of you Always...
In my heart and Prayers.....
Miss you........GINA

To the DeMatthews family,

I check you website whenever I check my own son's and just want you to know Joe is with you but you have to look for the signs. I really believe our loved ones never leave us but are close by always. Watch for signs and it really will give you peace.
Another mom

Hi my sweet baby,
How are you? I have been in some kind of mode lately, Joe. I just don't know. All I do know is that the holidays are right around the corner and I didn't even realize it for that matter I really haven't realized alot of things Joe. I do not keep track of time. I know every Halloween you went to Horror Night in Orlando.
You just loved going there every year.
I just don't know what or how we are going to make it through all of this.
Wayne has been coming over alot when he is home. That helps so much I can't even begin to say.
We need him. Dad needs him.
I don't want to put any, any pressure on him, he has enough to deal with. The driving alone is too much.
Joe, your brother misses you so much and you know Wayne just like Dad he keeps everything inside. Since he was little.
But the only thing is they are like time bombs waiting.
They have so much saddness, anger and mixed emotions since that horrible, horrible nightmare day.
I just along with them love and miss you so much.
Everyday I want to talk to you and tell you things.
I miss that so much.
Like I said before I hate it so much that I have to write to you to tell you things that ordinary I would call you or tell you when I got home.
But Dad said that we will see you soon.
And I can talk to you forever and ever.
I just worry about him, because for some reason he is just so bad.
Its like it is starting all over again.
I don't know, I guess it's just the way the mind works.
Who knows, I don't know anything anymore Joe.
Well my sweet angel I will talk to you later.
I love you forever and always.
Mom

MY BABY SON,

HOW ARE YOU DOING AS FOR ME IT IS THE SAME.
NOTHING HAS CHANGED.
LIKE I SAID OVER AND OVER IT DOES NOT GET BETTER SOME DAYS ARE BETTER THAN OTHERS BUT MOST OF THE DAYS ARE THE SAME.
NOT GOOD.
I AM STILL WAITING TO SEE WHY I WAS LEFT HERE AND YOU OF ALL PEOPLE WAS TAKEN.
I HAVEN'T SEEN ANYTHING NEW OR DIFFERENT EXCEPT ME AND YOUR FATHER AND ALL THE PEOPLE THAT LOVE YOU JUST BEING LEFT HERE IN PAIN.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THIS WORLD WORKS THE WAY IT DOES.
I HAVE NO ANSWERS AND THAT IS WHAT I NEED THE MOST.
SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE TOLD ME YOU WERE TAKEN FOR A REASON.
WELL TELL ME THE REASON. I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW.
WE GO TO CHURCH, COUNSELING, MEETINGS, DR.'S AND PRAY ALL DAY EVERY DAY.
I KNOW IT'S ME I AM SELFISH WHEN IT COMES TO YOU ALL I KNOW IS I WANT YOU BACK.
I KNOW I CAN'T.
I USUALLY CAN FIX THINGS AND THIS ONE I CAN'T. SO I AM SO FRUSTRATED I GUESS THAT IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN IT.
BUT THIS PAIN IS SO UNBEARABLE AND THIS EMPTYNESS THAT NOW I ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND PEOPLE WHO HAVE LOST LOVE ONES HOW THEY FEEL.
I USE TO FEEL REALLY SORRY FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE LOST LOVE ONES, BUT NOW IT IS ALL SO REAL AND TOTALLY DIFFERENT.
I FEEL NOW. WHAT THIS PEOPLE HAVE GONE THROUGH AND WHAT THEY STILL ARE GOING THROUGH.
IT WILL NEVER END, UNTIL THE DAY EVERYONE IS REUNITED WITH THEIR LOVE ONES.
THEIR IS SO MUCH PAIN JOE IN THIS WORLD.
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND IT. LITTLE BABIES STARVING AND DYING IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME.
IT SEEMS LIKE THIS IS HELL THAT WE ARE LIVING IN.
WELL MAYBE ONE DAY OR MAYBE NEVER THIS WILL MAKE SENSE.
WELL MY BEAUTIFUL BABY I WILL TALK TO YOU LATER.
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS.
YOUR MOM

Message by Linda Elliott

Dear Mrs. DeMatthews: I thought of you today as I was going into my daughter, Rhonda's website, and wondering how you are. I went into Joey's website and read his tributes. Such a handsome young man. What a wonderful gift. I read where you dream a lot of Joey but he doesnt talk to you, I never have a dream about Rhonda but have read where that doesnt mean anyting. They are still with us. I feel her with me. God bless you,

HI MY SWEET BOY,

I AM STILL IN ALOT OF PAIN AFTER THE SURGERY BUT I KNOW I HAD TO WRITE TO YOU.
I AM STILL HANGING IN HERE.
IT IS SO HARD SOMETIMES I DON'T THINK I WILL MAKE IT.
THEN I WAKE UP THE NEXT DAY.
IT'S LIKE I GET UP EVERY MORNING AND DON'T REMEMBER WHAT I DID THE WHOLE DAY.
LIKE IT WAS A BLUR.
I HATE IT.
I HATE THIS LIFE I HATE THIS FEELINGS, I JUST DON'T KNOW OR EVEN HAVE ANY ANSWERS.
JOE, YOU KNOW I DO NOT EVER, EVER DREAM I HAVE BEEN DREAMING.
I DON'T LIKE IT BECAUSE IT SEEMS SO REAL
UNTIL I WAKE UP AND MOST OF THE TIME THE DREAM WAKES ME UP.
IT'S LIKE YOU ARE WITH ME AND TELLING ME THINGS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT THEM.
BUT I KEEP HAVING BASICALLY THE SAME DREAM.
I WILL DO WHAT YOU ASK ME SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY.
YOU KNOW MOM ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS ASK ME SOMETHING.
WHEN IT CAME TO YOU AND WAYNE I WOULD LOOK AT YOUR FACES AND THE WORD NO WOULD NEVER COME OUT.
WELL MY BABY I WILL TALK TO YOU LATER.
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS.
MOM

Hi My Sweet Angel,

It's another raining day again. I went to Danielle's this am to get my hair done.
I really needed it. I keep her close to my heart just like I do with you. I just worry about her and I want to make sure she is doing ok.
I was telling her about saturday when we went to see Aubree do her dance routine at the Mets. She said we should have called her and I am so mad at myself that I didn't
she said she would have went and I know she would have, plus I know she would have had a good time and she would have laughed alot.
Like you and her use to laugh all the time when the kids were over.
You too always got such a kick out of the kids. Every time you to laughed it made everyone else laugh.
Well my baby I will talk to you later.
I love you and miss you forever and always.
Mom

Hi my Angel,
Just writing my daily message to you.
It's still raining. Very gloomy outside.
Just wanted to say how much I love and miss you so much. It seems like the days get worst not better.
Your father has been very bad this pass week.
Actually yesterday he was very bad.
He just can't watch the races without you on his mind.
I don't know what's he is going to do with football.
With you not here. I am not even looking forward to that. Because you know it does not take much for me to break down.
Well my baby I will talk to you later.
I love you forever and always.
Mom

Hi Baby,

Just wanted to let you know that Dad and I went to the Mets stad. to see Aubree do her dance routine before the game started.
You would have been so proud of her. She is getting so big. Alexa and Wayne III had such a good time watching the game and the fireworks.
We took alot of pictures.
You would be so surprised Dad caught 2 balls and gave them to the kids.
They were so happy. Your father tried so hard to get one for Aubree.
He of course wanted to catch 3 but you know how hard it is to just catch one.
Well we got out of the house and did have a good time and to see Aubree do her dance routine and the other guys.
It was a chance of pace and Amy was so glad we came.
Of course you know we would not miss Aubree's routine. It rained the whole time we were all so wet but we stayed there and we didn't care we all were so wet but we stayed until the end for the fireworks. They were so beautiful.
We love you and miss you. SO MUCH.
I have to get up early tomorrow for church and then I will write you.
I love you forever and always
Mom Forever

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HI MY SWEET BABY,

IT HAS BEEN RAINING THE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS.
WHICH MAKES ITS MORE DEPRESSING.
LITTLE BELLA YOU KNOW DOESN'T LIKE THE THUNDER. JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU I WAS GETTING SURGERY ON MY OTHER HAND AND ELBOW THIS TIME. I WAS GOING TO WAIT A LITTLE LONGER UNTIL MY RIGHT ONE WAS HEALED BUT THE DR. SAID IT TAKES ABOUT A YEAR.
SO I REALLY CAN'T WAIT THAT LONG SO I WILL BE GETTING IT DONE. SEPT. 1ST.
BUT I WILL STILL BE WRITING TO YOU EVERYDAY. WELL I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH.
LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER
MOM