Joseph William DeMatthews

Debbie

I read what you wrote to Joey & my heart is breaking for you!  I really wish there was something I could do to help you!  I wish I could give you a hug & make it all go away!  My prayers are with you & you are always in my thoughts.

The love between a mother & child is so strong - just take some comfort that Joey knows & feels the love - that he left knowing how much you do care about him because you showed him everyday!!

Diane

My sweet baby,

Joey, I know you see me and you know the condition I am in, so baby you know I couldn't write. But all my wonderful new friends still "DON'T FORGET'" and for that I can't say enough. I didn't think I had any more tear's left Joe, but I was wrong. All my life since I could remember even having my career I always wanted to have a family. Well I did, a wonderful one and I still kept muti-tasking. Not in my wildest dreams could I ever image you would have been taken from me. I know you can feel the pain the pain that is so deep rhat I carry with me at all times. I just want my baby back. I know how crazy that sounds but for me its not.

So many people tell me Debbie, give it time, time will heal you will fell so what better or it will ease up a little..... AS GOD IS MY WITNESS MY PAIN IS SO UNBEARABLE AND WILL NEVER EASE UP!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel worst! The days, weeks, months and years that go by is something that I do not even count nor take into consideration. All I know and feel is that you where taken from me yesterday.

As I write or just sit by myself no matter where or what I am doing my question is and always be why!

I know you only get what you can handle but, my sweet love it has been too much. When someone will say to me Debbie, Joey would never want to see you in this condition, Joe, my sweetness than they don't know our realationship because you and your brother know me and as your Mom you both know that I would not be any other way.

You know that I would be in the condition that I am in, you know that all I would be doing is crying, you know your Mom and you know I wouldn't be any other way, because of the deep love that runs inside me. As you and Wayne Jr.'s Mom you both know the realationship we always had was so special and unique. I know you would expect nothing otherwise. I also know it hurts you so to see me like this, but I have so tried Joe. I would even put on a smile and seem fine in front of everyone but inside I would be dying. As you know and the people that know me personally know that when I do smile it is not real and I am not and never will be the same Debbie everyone knew..

No one no matter who it is, when they lose a child, a child that they have carried inside them for almost a year and than nuture them and are there  through the years no matter what, they will never be the same. Yes, they try and get through the rest of their life the best they know how but that is it.They just are not the same person. My baby I will talk to you later, I just had to tell you, even though you see I needed to write it down......

THANK EVERYONE WHO DOES NOT FORGET!!!!!!!

WHO ARE NOW LIKE MY FAMILY!!!!!!

WHO ARE ALSO IN THEIR OWN PAIN!!!!!

WHAT CAN I SAY------- FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART WITHOUT WORDS SPOKEN.

Love you forever and always my Joey....

Joey, thinking of you today on your angel date.

This is a rough day for your mom so stay close

to her and send her a sign your near. She loves

and misses you so much. God love you sweet angel.

My Dear Friend Debbie,

Just want you to know that my heart is with you as Joey's angel date and Christmas are in a couple of days. Each day is difficult without our babies but the holidays are the worst. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I'm so thankful that I have you for a friend and if I could, I would give you a big HUG.

I so enjoyed our talks and hope you call again soon. Just know that I am thinking of you and wishing you the best holiday you can possibly have. Your not alone my friend, I'm right there beside you all the way. Let me know if there's anything I can do. Sending lots of love, hugs and support.

Your Friend Always, Michelle

Debbie, it was so good to talk to you yesterday and what a beautiful graphic you sent. I see you''ve got the hang of it now.  Adding the pictures are the easiest part. Just click in the center where the photo goes and pick from your picture file and it should put it in there. You can ajust the size to fit. Of course if you need more help I'm right here. Call again anytime. Before long you will be fixing Joey's site just the way you want it.

You know I'm always here for you and you can count on me. If I can't help then I'll find someone who can. I wish we lived closer, I would love to give you a big hug. You take care of yourself and hopefully I'll talk to you soon.

With much love, Michelle