Joseph William DeMatthews

HI MY SWEETHEART,

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. MY BABY, MY CHILD, MY SON.
WHAT MORE CAN I SAY YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING IN ONE.
I AM STILL HERE JOE, I DON"T KNOW HOW AND WHY BUT I AM HERE EVERYDAY WITHOUT YOU.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I WAS KEPT HERE AND YOU WERE TAKEN FROM ME.
I WANT AN ANSWER.
EVERYDAY I OPEN MY EYES ALL I KNOW IS THAT IT IS ANOTHER DAY OF PAIN AND EMPTYNESS.
AGAIN I DON'T UNDERSTAND AND I GUESS I NEVER WILL.
THIS YEAR IS GOING BY SO FAST I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.
I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL
ESPECIALLY TO THE HOLIDAYS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT OR WERE I AM GOING TO D0 OR BE.
I JUST KNOW I WANT IT TO COME AND GO AS FAST AS IT CAN.
NOT FOR OTHER FAMILIES LET THEM ENJOY THE HOLIDAYS WITH THEIR LOVE ONES.
I JUST KNOW I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME.
I KNOW I CARRY YOU IN MY HEART EVERYDAY.
BUT OF COURSE IT IS NOT THE SAME.
OK MY BABY I WILL TALK TO YOU LATER.
REMEMBER I JUST HAD SURGERY ON MY WRIST AND ELBOW.
SO IT IS VERY HARD TO WRITE TO YOU BUT I WILL NOT MISS ONE DAY.
I DON'T CARE HOW LONG IT TAKES ME TO WRITE TO YOU WITH ONE HAND BUT I WILL DO IT.
I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS
MOM

hi my baby,

sorry this is going to be short.
i had my surgery yesterday and i was up half the night.
they have me in a sling and it is very hard to write.
i am in so much pain.
like i need anymore.
well my love i will talk to you later.
i love you forever and always.

Goodmorning my sweet baby,

Well the hurricane past us we just had alot of rain and wind.
So that was good for everyone.
Alot of people put their shutters up but your father didn't. But thats good that alot of people did just in case.
Like I told you yesterday I really don't care and I am not afraid anymore of any hurricanes.
I get my surgery tomorrow very early in the morning on my other hand but it will be two surguries.
My wrist and elbow. So at least I will finally have them both finished after all these years, that I put they on the back burner.
I always put myself last you know that. Everyone else came first. But it came to the time where I couldn't even hold things without dropping them.
And the pain was so bad.
Well at least it will be my left this time so I can still write you.
I wouldn't care if it was my whole arm nothing would stop me from writing you everyday.
Well my baby I will talk to you later.
I love you and miss you forever and always.
Mom

Hi my beautiful son,

Just writing my daily message to you.
There is another hurricane coming.
All that does is remind me of last year with all those hurricanes how you kept teasing me about my safe place.
You always stay home with us during those.
That is where you always felt content and safe with mom and dad.
You also knew there was always food and a varity of things to drink.
I miss that so much.
You know since you are not here I was always afraid of the hurricanes but you know
now that the first one this year is headed our way again I am not a bit afraid.
I guess that is strange in a way.
I just wish you were here with us.
Well my love I will talk to you later.
I love you forever and always.
Love Mom

Hi my lovely baby,

I am doing OK I guess. If that's what it is called.
Your father Joe is really not doing well at all.
I was thinking about talking it over with your brother. Because you know how Dad is.
He has to be strong in front of anyone.
SO I have been thinking about this all week.
I will wait a couple more days and see how it goes.
Well my baby you know I just wanted to let you know how much I love and miss you so much I have this pit in my stomach.
I will talk to you later. I love you.
Love always and forever
Mom

Hi my sweet angel,

It's mom just writing my daily message to you.
Another day Joe that I have to go through without you here. You and me talking.
Just about daily things. What time were you going to the gym and what were you going to do the rest of the day when you were done.
Always checking as I usually do.
Doesn't matter how old you or your brother get I just needed to know or I just felt better knowing where you guys were.
I always felt at ease when I heard the door and I would ask you what you were doing and you would say I am home for the night I could actually go to sleep feeling that everything was ok.
But even now that I know were you are everyday I can't sleep nor eat or do anything I use to do.
There isn't a day that goes by that I don't shed a tear.
I just hate this emptyness and pain inside.
Everyday I literally hate it.
Well my love I will talk to you later.
Love you forever and always
Mom

Hi my Love,

Just checking in my daily routine to tell you how much I love you.
Boy Joe this year is going by so fast I can't believe it. I can't believe I am still here without you.
But like I told you I carry you in my HEART everyday. No Matter where I am you are always with me.
Well my baby I will talk to you later.
I love you forever and always.
Mom

 

Joe I forgot to put the dates that you will be featured on mem.com

 

August 26, 27 and the 28th.

 

I love you forever and always until we are reuntied again.

 

Mom Always

Hi my beautiful son,

You know Joe I think 24-7. You are always on my mind until I go to sleep.
I just don't understand why you would be taken away from me when you had so much to live for. Not only your beauty, smile, kindness and gentleness but your whole being. You had so much to live for , you loved life itself and you had so much to do.
On the other hand I should have went I lived my life and to keep me here in misery I don't understand it.
That is why I always question.
I am always depressed I don't want to do anything. My heart and soul is not there.
It will always be empty inside me always.
I just exsist. That is no life.
I hate being like this suffering everyday.
Crying at the least little thing.
It dosen't take much for me.
It's like I walk on a thin piece of thread everyday and I can go either way.
I just hate it. I try so hard everyday when
I wake up but I can't.
Like your brother told me the other day Mom
there are so many people here that need you and count on you and love you.
You have to think of that.
I do at least I try. But I see your face everyday and this feeling inside is just to painful and this emptyness that I have never experienced before. I try to hide it but you know I am not good at that.
I just wanted to go to my resting place knowing you and your brother were doing fine. Well my Love I just wanted to say hi my routine writing to say goodmorning to my baby.
I will talk to you later.
I love you and miss you forever and always.
Love your Mom always

Hi My Sweet Angel,

It's another raining day again. I went to Danielle's this am to get my hair done.
I really needed it. I keep her close to my heart just like I do with you. I just worry about her and I want to make sure she is doing ok.
I was telling her about saturday when we went to see Aubree do her dance routine at the Mets. She said we should have called her and I am so mad at myself that I didn't
she said she would have went and I know she would have, plus I know she would have had a good time and she would have laughed alot.
Like you and her use to laugh all the time when the kids were over.
You too always got such a kick out of the kids. Every time you to laughed it made everyone else laugh.
Well my baby I will talk to you later.
I love you and miss you forever and always.
Mom

HI MY SWEET BABY,

IT HAS BEEN RAINING THE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS.
WHICH MAKES ITS MORE DEPRESSING.
LITTLE BELLA YOU KNOW DOESN'T LIKE THE THUNDER. JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU I WAS GETTING SURGERY ON MY OTHER HAND AND ELBOW THIS TIME. I WAS GOING TO WAIT A LITTLE LONGER UNTIL MY RIGHT ONE WAS HEALED BUT THE DR. SAID IT TAKES ABOUT A YEAR.
SO I REALLY CAN'T WAIT THAT LONG SO I WILL BE GETTING IT DONE. SEPT. 1ST.
BUT I WILL STILL BE WRITING TO YOU EVERYDAY. WELL I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH.
LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER
MOM

 

My Sweet Angel,

 

Just writing to you today as my daily routine. You know all I can say is how much I miss and Love you. How this emptyness inside me is all so new to me that I don't know how to handle it. My tears run down my face every day for you.

I lite a candle for you everyday. My days are so empty without you in them.

I just miss your smile so much I have this pain inside that just won't go away. I guess it won't until we are reunited again, my sweet baby.

I love you always and forever.

Love Mom

Hi my Sweet Baby,

I just got done writing on your website.
I just wanted to tell you how much I love and miss you. I know I tell you that everyday but I hate to have to do it this way now.
Joe everyone misses you so much. Your kindness, smile, gentleness and your innocents.
Big Joe as your friends called you. To me you are and always will be my beautiful, sweet baby boy.
I just cannot wait until we are reunited.
It is the same here Joe nothing has changed except your not here.
So our life is on a day to day basis.
We don't do anything. We just can't.
Alot of friends and family members invite us over but we don't go only because we do not want to ruin their good time not because we don't want to.
I just can't enjoy myself or put on a fake smile that is not who I am.
I have nothing to be happy about.
Well my sweet boy I will talk to you later.
I love you forever and always.
Mom

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